Creating the Perfect Moment

The one thing that I have always done in life is put things off that I have always wanted to do. I have always told myself, now is not the time I have other work to do I should wait until its over, but the problem is that once that one piece of work is over another comes along and I find that I never get done what I want.

I am always trying to find the perfect time waiting for it to come but, the one thing I have learn and I think is one of the most important lessons you can learn is that; If you keep waiting for the perfect time it will never come, you need to go out and create that perfect time for yourself. Their is never a better time to start than the present and once you have taken that first step and started the rest will be a lot easier to do.

I keep telling myself that I want to start doing more photography but I cannot because of university however one day I decided to go out for the afternoon and spend some time just relaxing and taking some photos. I found that after doing this it made me feel a lot better about myself knowing that I have finally achieved something that I have been telling myself I wanted to do for a long time now. As well as this I feel a lot more confident about getting out there and making that perfect moment for myself.

 

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Mathew

The Power Of Music

Music, to me, is everything, it is my escape from life, my outlet from this hectic, stressful life. When you place those headphones on and play a song all of a sudden, everything starts to disappear. Who you are, all of your tears, all of your fears, they just seem to melt away. You become lost, lost in a world where the music is the only thing that matters, a world where you feel no one can hurt you anymore.

When the music hits you, the way it flows through you and hits your heart, you then become one with the music and lose yourself within it.

As long as there is music in this world, there will always be hope, people will always have an outlet in life, something to take the pain away even if it is just for that moment, a moment that may seem insignificant to most people, but to you that moment lasts a lifetime, as you become lost in the music.

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Mathew

Manic Depression

The feeling my mood who I become. It still scares me all of the time. The way my mood has the ability to just drastically change I have to say I do feel that it is more under control now since I went and received help. The change is still there though; there will be the times when I feel myself full of so much energy I find myself so awake and so, hyper for example the other day I found myself searching on you tube and at one point I was on the floor rolling around laughing just at random videos. The video was nothing much but somehow I just could not stop no matter what I did. However, there is still that part of me that feels that none of this laughter is real that I create it as just a defence mechanism, hiding myself away from the pain of the fall.

But, regardless of this it still comes, and it is at these points that it scares me so much, I free fall so quickly, quicker that I can comprehend with. Before I realise it all of a sudden, I have gone from the highest peak of the tallest tower to the deepest darkest corner of the world and my whole world changes as if I have become a completely new person it hurts. It is so hard to describe it the feeling the darkness, the emptiness, it is just there, constantly, encompassing everything and all I want to do is be alone no people no life no responsibilities just me in my head paralysed so to speak, unable to function.

Then it is gone. It could be hours, days, weeks, I never know but it is as if I have been hit by the biggest jolt of electricity and all of a sudden I’m someone else and the cycle starts again.

 

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Thank you

Mathew

You Are Strong

Strong for too long

 

It is hard for people who suffer from a mental illness to believe that they are strong the constant thought that you are weak your feeling like this because you are too weak.

This is not true!!!

I believe that people who have a mental illness are some of the strongest people around. This is because everything that has happened, all that you have gone through and will go though, you are making it though everyday no matter how hard it gets you are making it though fighting and this alone shows that.

You are strong you are not weak you never were weak, you never will be.

I want to tell you all to stay strong you will win no matter how hard it gets.

The sun always rises after the darkest of nights!!!

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Mathew

Will They Ever Understand

Trying to understand

At the current moment in time I believe that this perfectly describes the situation of understanding of people who have never experienced depression before. It is so hard to put into words the exact feeling and exactly how it effects you and your life.

However, recently I have seen the media talk about the topic of mental health a lot more. As a result of this I believe that it will make more people realise just how big and widespread mental health is. I also believe that because of this more people will start researching about mental health and possibly from this possess a greater knowledge of how it can effect an individual as to better be able to help someone they know.

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Mathew

It will get better

It all gets better

 

I wanted to share this picture with everyone because I think these few words are so powerful and they hold the potential to help so many people.

For people who are suffering with depression to have that small glimmer of hope no matter what the size that hope that there is light at the end of the tunnel, it, gives you something to focus on, something to fight for and something to live for and that above all is the most important thing in the world.

Thank you for reading

Mathew