The Power Of Music

Music, to me, is everything, it is my escape from life, my outlet from this hectic, stressful life. When you place those headphones on and play a song all of a sudden, everything starts to disappear. Who you are, all of your tears, all of your fears, they just seem to melt away. You become lost, lost in a world where the music is the only thing that matters, a world where you feel no one can hurt you anymore.

When the music hits you, the way it flows through you and hits your heart, you then become one with the music and lose yourself within it.

As long as there is music in this world, there will always be hope, people will always have an outlet in life, something to take the pain away even if it is just for that moment, a moment that may seem insignificant to most people, but to you that moment lasts a lifetime, as you become lost in the music.

Thank you for reading

Mathew

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Surprise yourself

Socialising, now, for many people this is just natural, they go to the pub or out to the shops with friends and socialise, talk. It seems so natural and so easy.

However, for many people socialising almost feels like one of the hardest things to do in life. As you come together, meet up with a group of people whatever the situation, your ability to socialise vanishes, as you almost feel like your lips has been sewn together; you can imagine and think of the words in your mind however, they just do not seem to come out. As you start to think over what you are trying to say, you feel the doubt that starts to seep in. Then that is it, you are scared and begin to fear what you are trying to say and you sit there in silence lost in your mind.

A lot of people will not understand your shyness and think of you as ignorant.

This is not true though. You are such a great person though, someone who has a whole world of ideas locked up in your mind, things that are fun, entertaining and intellectual just waiting to be unlocked.

It is the hardest thing to do though to let those words leave your mouth, to remove all control over them, but as Eleanor Roosevelt said ‘Do one thing every day that scares you’. From this, you may surprise yourself, the first step is always the hardest, but once complete I believe that it is one of the most rewarding.

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Mathew Lees

Manic Depression

The feeling my mood who I become. It still scares me all of the time. The way my mood has the ability to just drastically change I have to say I do feel that it is more under control now since I went and received help. The change is still there though; there will be the times when I feel myself full of so much energy I find myself so awake and so, hyper for example the other day I found myself searching on you tube and at one point I was on the floor rolling around laughing just at random videos. The video was nothing much but somehow I just could not stop no matter what I did. However, there is still that part of me that feels that none of this laughter is real that I create it as just a defence mechanism, hiding myself away from the pain of the fall.

But, regardless of this it still comes, and it is at these points that it scares me so much, I free fall so quickly, quicker that I can comprehend with. Before I realise it all of a sudden, I have gone from the highest peak of the tallest tower to the deepest darkest corner of the world and my whole world changes as if I have become a completely new person it hurts. It is so hard to describe it the feeling the darkness, the emptiness, it is just there, constantly, encompassing everything and all I want to do is be alone no people no life no responsibilities just me in my head paralysed so to speak, unable to function.

Then it is gone. It could be hours, days, weeks, I never know but it is as if I have been hit by the biggest jolt of electricity and all of a sudden I’m someone else and the cycle starts again.

 

Thank you reading and letting me express my thoughts and feeling to you

Thank you

Mathew

You Are Strong

Strong for too long

 

It is hard for people who suffer from a mental illness to believe that they are strong the constant thought that you are weak your feeling like this because you are too weak.

This is not true!!!

I believe that people who have a mental illness are some of the strongest people around. This is because everything that has happened, all that you have gone through and will go though, you are making it though everyday no matter how hard it gets you are making it though fighting and this alone shows that.

You are strong you are not weak you never were weak, you never will be.

I want to tell you all to stay strong you will win no matter how hard it gets.

The sun always rises after the darkest of nights!!!

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Mathew

Will They Ever Understand

Trying to understand

At the current moment in time I believe that this perfectly describes the situation of understanding of people who have never experienced depression before. It is so hard to put into words the exact feeling and exactly how it effects you and your life.

However, recently I have seen the media talk about the topic of mental health a lot more. As a result of this I believe that it will make more people realise just how big and widespread mental health is. I also believe that because of this more people will start researching about mental health and possibly from this possess a greater knowledge of how it can effect an individual as to better be able to help someone they know.

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Mathew

It will get better

It all gets better

 

I wanted to share this picture with everyone because I think these few words are so powerful and they hold the potential to help so many people.

For people who are suffering with depression to have that small glimmer of hope no matter what the size that hope that there is light at the end of the tunnel, it, gives you something to focus on, something to fight for and something to live for and that above all is the most important thing in the world.

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Mathew

If Physical Diseases Were Treated Like Depression

If diseases were treated like depression

I’ve been seeing this picture posted on Facebook quite a lot recently and the more I see it more truth that I see within its content.

The whole view of mental illness is a very unknown topic to a lot of people. For example, when I am not feeling so great my whole life spins around and its impossible to do, anything, however, I get a lot of people saying to me ah its ok just you know watch a funny cat video or stop being a wimp and man up and find the motivation now!!! your being stupid and over reacting. It does effect me when people say this there’s a part of me that just wants to show them how I feel so they can fully understand what it does to you and give people a better Idea of how to help.

Now, referring back to the picture I believe there is a lot of truth here, a way of possible showing people that its not as easy as just saying stop being lazy and motivate yourself now!!! And looking at it as a new way of showing people that mental illness is not just you being lazy or stupid and it really does effect your whole life and thus it should be seen in a whole new light by people.

Thank you for reading

Mathew